One of those moments

Do you ever have those moments where you wish you could take a picture but know you can't? I'm having one of them right now.

I'm laying in our hotel room. We arrived not long ago, all three boys sleeping in the car. Only one made it to the room still asleep, Corbin. One wanted to eat and one wanted to play. Now, they are all tucked in for the night.

Rollie is playing with the edge of the garbage can through the rungs of his crib(yes, I probably should get up and move it). I can hardly blame him for not laying still, he's been in his carseat most of the day.

The other two, well, they are sleeping. In the same bed, side by side and snuggling. Oh, how I wish I could take a picture of it. They are so sweet and peaceful. I am praying these are the attitudes that will remain tomorrow. But right now I'm soaking in every moment of this in an almost pitch-black room.

These really are the moments I don't want to forget. It's hard being a mom. The days are hard and long and often thankless. They are routine and sometime mundane. And at the same time, it goes so quickly.

Silas will be two tomorrow. I vividly remember the night before this birth, we were celebrating Casey's 30th birthday with friends. It was hot and fun and exhausting. And a big surprise to wake up the next morning and have a tiny, beautiful, premature baby less than 4 hours later.

I am grateful for these moments. I want to capture them. I don't want to forget. I want them seared into my brain and heart.