I had never considered myself a proud person. Maybe that's pride in itself.
I have a very hard time asking for help. I am a wife, a mother, a homemaker, and I would like to be a Proverbs 31 woman. I should be able to do it all myself. My children don't watch tv or movies(until this week), they eat nutritious meals, they obey(sometimes), they are kind to eachother and others. Sounds like I've got it together!
This pregnancy has changed a lot of things. I can no longer do the things I used to do. I am no longer able to do our shopping, no more meal making(although I still do lunch, the kids have to eat), my temper is much shorter. I spend much of my time watching my boys play and reading books to them. Corbin has interest in watching tv! I don't really like this but at the same time I do. It gives me a little break, granted his shows are only 10 minutes long, but it's a little break nonetheless.
I have started to ask for help. We set up a care calendar so people can see our needs and sign up where they feel they are able. While this is a big step for me, it still isn't good enough. I still have pride that I can do things on my own. I have sweet friends who have offered to clean around my house and yet, my answer is no thanks. Why? PRIDE! I don't want people to think I am helpless. I don't want people to see that things aren't as neat as I would like. It's all pride. I do need the help. I am so learning to let it all go. Let God use others to bless me. I know that I am blessed. I feel it eveyday.
Please pray for me as I learn to give my pride to Christ. To humbly seek and accept help. To not come to expect others do to things for me, remaining grateful.
For those of you that have already been helping or have signed up to help, thank you. I am truly appreciative. You have been a great gift to our family.