Two days before Silas birthday I was in the hospital. I was given a 40% chance of delivering the baby within 2 weeks. There was a mix of emotions. The greatest at the moment seemed like sadness. I felt like this was going to cheat Silas out of his moment. His first birthday. His golden birthday. I sat in the hospital and cried selfish tears for my baby boy who was no longer a little baby. I wanted to make his birthday special. I didn't want to be in the hospital. I know, he wouldn't have remembered anyway but I would have and as a mom, its very hard. You want to enjoy and celebrate all of their moments in life. The doctor decided that I could go home for the night but needed to come back the next day. We were going to start steroid shots to help the baby's development in case he was born premature.
We were able to go ahead with Silas party!!!
WHAT IS GOING ON???
ALL FOR ME
I'M GOING TO EAT IT ALL, REALLY
TIME TO PLAY IN THE GRASS
A birthday never to forget